For the first time in my life, I found myself in the middle of December literally forgetting about the holidays. Maybe it was the pandemic. Maybe it was stress. Maybe it was the unfamiliar feeling of not knowing what’s next.
Prior to this year, I’ve always been the type to have it all figured out. I found out what I liked and disliked at an early age. I’m decisive, and I literally have my moral compass written out in a notebook that I keep with me.
So when I realized earlier this year that my heart wasn’t truly into the things that I had been studying for the last two years in grad school, I was confused. For the first time in my life I was one of those people who didn’t know what they were doing or where they were going.
What Great Really Feels Like
That’s when I learned something that changed my life, and hopefully will change someone else’s as well. The truth is, that scary uncomfortable feeling of malleability is what separates the good from the great. Of course, when you’re good you feel this sort of pressure to keep up and maybe every once in a while, a bit of discomfort. But when you are great there is a new level of uncomfortable that you have to become familiar with.
So while at first I decided to suffer through it, and remain “good,” I realized that God had other plans. That nagging feeling of not being comfortable being regular would not go away. I knew the circumstances around me were not permanent. And after fighting it for as long as I could, I decided to embrace it.
It’s not greatness that’s scary, it’s the uncertainty. It’s the audacity. It’s the tenacity.
You have to declare yourself as great before you are certain that you’ll become great. You have to have the audacity to assume that you’ll pass every test that you need to in order to become great. And you have to have the tenacity to see it through despite what the circumstances look like.
So as this holiday season comes to a close, I choose to embrace the uncertainty of everything. It’s uncertainty that produces the awe-inspiring moments in life. It leads us down paths we didn’t even know were possible. It surprises us with a win after a streak of losses. It’s the motivation that keeps us focused on the finish line. It’s the unfamiliar feeling of not knowing what’s next.